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Well, hello there. Just a minute. I< have to find something to make me feel more comfortable.> [bottle of water, pillow, _________ ] That's better. (music in the background- "Free Your Mind, and the Rest Will Follow")

It's kind of [weird, awkward, exhilarating]  typing something that is more than 140 characters.

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There was nothing on television. The last two minutes were about how to survive a snowmobile accident in water/ice. Let's hope that never happens. [intermittent pause] I decided to write instead! ("I am dying to live" -quote by Metallica)

Confirmed. Twitter has got me wrapped up like a bow on a Christmas tree...most of the time. Today, was a special time with the dog. We used to have this 'time' every week. Today, I kept feeling like there was something I should do. Anything. Be productive. It was like I was trying to convince myself out of enjoying the day with my fluffy puppy.

Fortunately, she was full of energy. We had just a completed a 6 hr [drive, tour, ____________ ]
When she made her way to the bus stop, the bus was coming, so we hopped on. There was another little dog. He had to sit on the floor. I am certain it is not easy being a little dog.

We then took the subway to The Danforth, and got the MOST AMAZING beef souvlaki, which we shared together, at the fountain. I bought potato chips that have been made in avocado oil, special salad dressing, and bubble gum Pop Rocks. We walked westbound.

When we got to the bridge, I sang. PixietheDog loves music. I [looked, stared, ____________ ] over the DVP and sang ("I'm on the Top of the World, Looking down on creation, And the only explanation I can find, Is the love that I found ever since you've been around" by The Carpenters) Pixie wagged her tail.

It's now 1am. TV Guide used to be my favourite magazine. I'm not sure I want to subject myself to bloody crimes scenes, and survival skill stories again, so I think I'll do something else on the computer. [mumbling] Wish I brought the jigsaw puzzle.

Toronto Maple Leafs- The Game of the PowerPlays

The Toronto Maple Leafs just lost. Every goal scored against them occurred on a power play. This is the game that happened while I am in Toronto. If I was superstitious, I would consider it a bad omen. Instead, I am smiling with the very realization that I am physically in Toronto.

I have spent the past year living in Northern Ontario. It is really beautiful, but for me, maddening. I love details and stimuli. Where I live, there is water, trees, and rocks. That's it. Everywhere you go. All the houses look the same. The city was developed in 1958, as a mining community. It happened really fast, so not a lot of thought was put into the dwellings. The people who live there, are the people who moved there because some one in the family was a miner.

When it was discovered that uranium causes terminal lung problems, the mines were shut down. Every one there grew up together, and went through these hardships together.  Some people have a lot of money, and collect vehicles. One of the guys I see at the pub always carries a thousand dollars in cash. It fascinates me, and I have yet to tell him of my desire to organize his bills. I've had a job counting cash and depositing it, but to have so much in one's own wallet is mind-boggling.

Anyway, last time I lived in Toronto, I followed my heart and moved downtown. The commute to my Mississauga office job became too much, so I quit, thinking I would get permanent employment. I was so close to the Financial District. How could there not be work?

I had incredible experiences working in events, my default job. It was the perfect place for me. I love meeting new people, and being a part of what is happening. I also ran a dog walking/housecleaning business. And lived off credit. Until I lost my place. I knew which bridge I wanted to live under, but it never came to that. The last few months at my downtown apartment were amazing. I often walked my dog along the trail of Rosedale Valley Blvd.

I can relate to the way the Leafs lost. It may not be the way they see it. The way I see it, is they were scored against when they were one-man down. They came back, and they fought, but in the end, it wasn't enough. It sounds sad. It would be nice if they won. But there is something far more important. They bear the name: Toronto. Yeah, I need a job/money. I am "one man down". But I am in Toronto.

Razor - High Speed Metal

Ramble On

This Heintz commercial aired about ten years ago:

{A group of young guys watch a pretty lady in a restaurant}

"She's looking for the Heintz. Can't find it anywhere...looks over...sees it...she's coming over."

[shyly] "Excuse me...ummm, I can't seem to find any Heintz."

[confidently] "You're kidding. Here you can have some of mine."

[shared smiles as we notice the stack of Heintz bottles beside the guys]

 It would have been very different, if it was me.  They took all the ketchup to get my attention, and watched me the whole time.
Frolick off, would ya! I'm just trying to enjoy some fries, which is not something I often do.
If you really knew me, you would know that I am pursuing self-comfort.
I am not interested in communicating with any one!
If I had a cloak of invisibility, I would use it.

You don't know me.
That's what's so irksome.
All you know is that I go to this particular restaurant, which is a little creepy.
Were you stalking me?

The worst thing about stalkers is that they don't really care.
If they really cared, they would know that I don't eat ketchup with my fries. I use mayonnaise.

My Life Would Suck Without You

Dear Dad,

This song reminds me of Newmarket. I know you think of the ways you could have made things different. I think of it, too. When I share this, it is not to placate, I'm just telling the truth. My life would suck without you. It is so good not only knowing who you are, but knowing that I am related to you. I am your daughter.

The Friendship that Turned to Marriage Overnight

Marriage is full of all kinds of adjustments. People grow. Circumstances change.

If you feel you are just going through the motions, this could be what’s happening:

5. No personal aspirations. This may be coupled with addictions.

4. Suspecting there are strings attached whenever your spouse is kind.

3. Undermining good deeds/words from your spouse.

2. Becoming defensive whenever he/she wants to talk about the relationship, and

1. Not listening.

A common theory is to give what you want to receive, but wouldn’t that make it all about you? Why not, receive what your spouse is giving, and just say, ‘thank you,’ in your own way.

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